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I dream in grief.

The hugs we’ll never share

The messages you never got to leave

Bidding that I leave them with your loved ones.

Blowing bubbles on the kitchen floor

Waking up from embracing you, smiling

The lost ones in the background,

Blending in,

Can’t be bothered.

I dream in the spaces others dare not explore.

I dream to find sense

Where none may otherwise be found

And even still may not be found here.

I dream in closure

Saying goodbye to that imaginary best friend

The one who kept you company when others would or could not

One last slow dance before a lifetime of parting

One last time to play before playtime’s over.

I dream in opportunities

In the space of cultivating a relationship never had when you were here.

Those dreams make me miss you more

And yet, I still feel like I don’t know you.

I dream in loss.

I dream in the spaces others fear to tread

A pioneer in this unknown territory

Mourning you in the ethers

Waking up in tears

Fears of losing you in real time

To realize it’s already happened

Grieving silently awake

Grieving loudly asleep

I dream in heartache.

I dream in love.